Sometimes I grow weary. Life is difficult enough, but sometimes it seems like life is even more difficult when I have a genuine desire to live a life pleasing to the Lord. I think this is because to do so is to go against the grain of my being. My flesh desires much that does not honor God, and unfortunately, it does not desire very many things at all that do honor God. So one who truly does want to live in such a way that brings glory to Christ, must constantly fight his inner nature that wars against the desire for righteousness. It is so easy to sin, and so difficult to train myself to act righteously. It is easy to grow weary. It is even easier when I try to read my Bible and pray, but instead just end up moving my eyes across a page, and then worrying and thinking about my day when I meant to be praying. When this happens, I become weary of even trying to ask God to strengthen me. But the Lord God is good, and He knows the weaknesses of His children, and loves them anyway. This morning, even though I am weary inside and out, the Spirit prompted me to get up instead of turning my alarm off, and in picking up in Isaiah where I had left off last time, He had a word of encouragement for me. There in the midst of chapters that are sometimes difficult to read, are a few nuggets of wisdom that I can cling to in these times of weariness. I long for a day when I will wake up and feel physically rested, when I will joy in righteousness and desire goodness instead of selfishness, when I will lay down at the end of the day with no regrets over my words and actions that day. I don’t know if that day will come this side of Heaven or not, but these verses assure me that it will come, either here or there, but it will indeed come. Read them and take heart, oh fellow weary one. Though you indeed are very weary, if you are abiding in Christ, then this promise is for you, too.
Isaiah 40:28-31: “Have you not known? Have you not heard? The LORD is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He does not faint or grow weary; his understanding is unsearchable. He gives power to the faint and to him who has no might he increases strength. Even youths shall faint and be weary, and young men shall fall exhausted; but they who wait for the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.”
Oh, to renew my strength. To mount up with wings and soar like an eagle. To run and not be weary. To walk and not faint. Will I get to this point in this life? I don’t know. But there is the promise, and I will cling to it. I will get to this place of soaring instead of stumbling. I will have the power and the strength promised here. And for that promise, I can continue to persevere through the weariness. The Lord God is faithful to keep His promises, and in that I can find rest for my weary soul.