Okay, I’ve been saying for six months that I’m going to start eating better and exercising more so that I can lose the rest of my baby weight. (Or is it Elisabeth’s baby weight, since she was the baby?) However, six months later I’ve gained three pounds. So on Monday I pulled out my Weight Watchers books and calculator, dusted them off, took a deep breath and began again. (Note: I found out last week that my ten year high school reunion is in the works for next summer. Nothing like a little motivation, huh?) For me, however, this is more than just a physical issue. Of course, there are definitely physical components: I’d love to lose weight (obviously), I’d like to have more energy, I want to do what I can to prevent all the health problems that come with being overweight, I want to be able to keep up with my children and be physically active with them, and so on and so forth. But I think the spiritual component is bigger. One of the fruits of the Spirit–evidences that the Spirit lives inside of me–is self-control. Does this include self-control in my eating habits? As much as I don’t want to admit it, the answer is yes. My main problem regarding eating is that I just enjoy it too much. I eat when I’m not hungry simply because I enjoy what I’m eating. I think, I’ve had a hard day (Sharpie drawings on the couch; 473 shoutings of “That’s mine!”; teething baby; mysterious towel soaking wet with water of unknown origin dripping off of the counter, courtesy of Catherine; fishing dog food out of baby’s mouth-you get the picture) and I deserve to eat this wonderful treat. However, this attitude is not good for me physically or spiritually. Self-control for me in this area means denying sin when it is disguised as pleasure. Is it a sin to eat treats? Of course not. Is gluttony a sin? Unfortunately, yes. So where do we draw the line? I have no idea. But I do know that I have had little to no self-control in my eating habits lately, and I’ve probably been bordering on gluttony if not already there. Hence, the Weight Watchers calculator. Learning portion control and the art of denying myself a treat when I’ve already had enough that day are steps, for me, on the road to developing self-control. So yes, I want to lose weight, and when I hit that 10% goal you’ll probably be able to hear me shouting. But more importantly, I want to honor Christ, and if that means deciding that I want to be self-controlled and show fruit of the Spirit more than I want ice cream or a Coke, then that’s the choice I’ll have to make. So why do I bare this struggle for all the cyber-world to see? I’m not really sure. Maybe so you who read this can comment and hold me accountable. Maybe my struggle will encourage someone else. Anyway, forward I go on this journey, and listen for that celebratory yell when I reach my 10% goal!!