Well, I’m officially 30. No more “2” in front of my age. I guess this is a big deal. I’m not really feeling that it’s a big deal. Being 30 doesn’t really make me feel old. Having a child that’s already 6 and closing in on 7 is what makes me feel old. It doesn’t seem right that I should be 30, though. I still feel like a kid playing house. Is it really possible that I’m a grown-up, living with my husband in our own house and have four children? No way. One morning I’ll wake up and still be a teenager and it will all have been a dream, right? Well, if it is a dream, I hope I don’t wake up any time soon because I’m loving it.
I can’t say that I’m exactly where I dreamed of being, at this point in my life, because I never would have pictured the path my life has taken. When I remember the ideas and plans we had as we looked into the future, it just makes me laugh now. We were so clueless, as is everyone when they’re dreaming out their lives. You get out on your own, and life smacks you around a little, and then you grow up. Sometimes the path God lays out for you seems better than the one you imagined, and sometimes it seems worse. But it’s always best, and I am so glad He vetoed many of our grandiose schemes. I love where 30 finds me. The blessings and mercies in my life far outweigh the trials, and always have–even when the trials were all I could see at the moment.
“The LORD is my chosen portion and my cup; you hold my lot. The lines have fallen for me in pleasant places; indeed, I have a beautiful inheritance….Therefore my heart is glad, and my whole being rejoices; my flesh also dwells secure…You make known to me the path of life; in your presence there is fullness of joy, at your right hand are pleasures forevermore.” Psalm 16:5-6,9,11.
Over the hill? No way. I scoff at the hill. Life is good, and since the Lord is my chosen portion and it is He who pours my cup, it can only remain good. Bring on the 30’s. I can’t wait to see what He has in store along this new path in my life. After all, the best is yet to come, right?